My Faith (- An old amateur poem by me- )

Posted by Adam Rayan On Saturday, 18 May 2013 1 comments

I'm now slowly losing  my faith,
I'm lonely, broken and even afraid,
my skin is now cold and pale,
as I've now lost the trail,

holding a grudge, deep inside my soul,

my hopes have now started to fall,
and a voice inside me tries to call,
the lost hopes, which are no more,

my eyes are now filled with tears,

my heart has now stopped with fear,
screams from the past, I now hear,
my soul has now started to tear,

suddenly I feel the warmth of the sun,

my eyes shine and my fears burn,
as I hear myself say,
"have faith in God, He is the one" . 


No one knows but I exist,

a pain always I've to resist,
sadness engulfs me in its fist,
no one knows but I exist,


no one loves me and no one cares,
my grief and sorrows, no one shares,
I cry and weep but no one's there,
no one knows but I exist,

no one knows when I cry,
no one knows I wanna die,
to forget my past, I do try,
no one knows but I exist,

no one knows but I'm alone,
no one knows my heart is torn,
no one knows as I mourn,
no one knows but I exist,

no one knows, my heart bleeds,
no one knows, my mind shrieks,
no one knows, my heart screams,
no one knows but I exists,

I can't take this pain anymore,
my eyes are numb, my thoughts are cold,
I pray to God to bless my soul,
'cause He knows that I exist. 





In the mirror , I try to find,
a broken heart, an image of mine,
neither it reflects, nor it shines,
dark it is, like my mind,

In the broken pieces of my heart,

I try to find the hope, a new start,
but my soul , my happiness is torn apart,
to fake a smile, i try too hard,

To gather the broken pieces of my life,

I wander in the darkness, every single night,
the sadness stabs my heart, like a  knife,
fighting my hurtful past, i am trying to survive.




The Forlorn Angel

Posted by Adam Rayan On Thursday, 16 May 2013 3 comments




Last night, the forlorn angel took me into its mighty wings of
agony and flew me to the paradise of sufferings.
I smelled the flowers of blood and the moon of fire enlightened my lonely soul.I drank from the fountain of misery , ate from the tree of pain, kissed the eternal darkness and sang the melodious songs of sadness.I swam through the river of flames and alone slept on the bed of thorns........




My Soul

Posted by Adam Rayan On 2 comments


My soul has been through the eternal shredder of time and pain but that isn't enough,right now my heart is sipping the coldest of miseries and my eyes can cry a river of blood but there is no limit to this suffering ,to this agony that i am going through. Feeling lonely even when sitting in a crowd,I feel like crying my heart out every single moment I fake a smile. These dark angels of loneliness are taking me into their mighty wings of sadness as they  slowly suffocate me to death,my only rescue..





Even angels cried when you hurt my soul,
And waves shed tears on the shore,
The moon faded, the light was gone,
You left me broken and forlorn,
I could hear the sobs of angels crying,
I could feel inside, my heart was dying,
You left me dead, you burnt me alive,
I've forgotten, who am I,
I try to run across the time,
To find myself, to bring my smile,
But the past is dark, like this night,
Soaked in the blood, like my eyes,
I pray to god, to take me high,
Into the heavens, above the sky,
But I guess I've to embrace this life,
In which I am dead before my time.